Random short
stories:
White
Horse_Taylor Swift.
Reminder:
This ain’t a cool story yang anda cari. P.O.V means, Point Of View.
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim~.
“I’m sorry.”
Kepala lelaki itu menunduk ke bawah, tak berani langsung nak memandang dia.
Dia menarik
nafas dalam-dalam. Senyum diukir d bawah pengaruh sedar.
“I
understand.”
Lelaki itu
mengangkat wajah dari permukaan meja di restoran itu. Mencari anak matanya.
“You don’t
have to worry. I’m aware of this thing. So… yeah… it’s okay.”
“I…just want
you to know that when we are together, I do love you.”
“You
did.”Pantas dia memotong kata-kata lelaki itu.
Lelaki itu
tergamam. “Yeah…I did.”
Dia
mengangguk. “Well, I’m so glad that you tell me before you make any
relationship with her. At least you’re being honest. And I understand. So…
don’t worry.Okay?”
Lelaki itu
mengagguk.
“Well,
that’s all right? I mean… aku tak asar lagi… I’ll…see you around?”
Dia sudah
membangunkan diri dari kerusi. Anak mata lelaki itu membulat. Aku?
“But…I hope
that we can still be friends?”
Dia terdiam
seketika. “Yeah…sure.” Dia mula meninggalkan babak.
“Oh… about
those gifts that you gave me…”
“Keep that.”
Dia
mengangguk. “Thanks…”
Say you're sorry
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on
The days drag on
Stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known
That face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on
The days drag on
Stupid girl,
I should have known, I should have known
Syamin P.O.V:
Nafas
dilepas perlahan. Sejadah direnung tak beremosi. Sedih…betul tapi… air mata tak
keluar pun. Lelaki tu baik…betul. Tapi… let’s just say jodoh sampai sini je?
Jodoh ey? Tak ada jodoh la… I wish you all the best with that girl la bro…
Telekung dilipat, bersegera pula dia kembali ke
Harriernya, menuju ke rumah.
Pintu
utama dibuka, dilihat Farah sedang bersiap-siap, sibuk ke hulur hilir mencari
apa entah. Farah terkaku apabila terlihat dia.
Dia senyum seperti selalu.
“Syamin… I…”
“Don’t…worry…I’m cool.”
“I’m sorry…”
“Well, it’s not anyone fault kalau dia dah jatuh hati
dengan kau, no?”
Farah menunduk.
“Kau masih cakap macam tu lagi ke? Aku tak tahula kau
ni…bangang ke baik sangat ke…”
A-yen yang sedari tadi senyap dibalik akhbar bersuara.
Akhbar dicampak tepi sebaik sahaja kata-katanya habis. Terus A-yen bangkit
mengunci diri di dalam bilik.
“Kau suka la
kan tengok benda jadi macam ni kan? Memang ni yang kau nak kan?” Adye, matanya
tajam mencerlung Farah.
“Adye…kau
orang ni apahal? Macam kau orang pula putus cinta. Aku tak apa-apalah.”
“Bohongla
kalau kau kata kau tak apa-apa. Kau dengan Faizul dah tiga tahun tau. Tapi
tiba-tiba… budak ni…”
“Adye…dah…
dah…”
Adye hanya
mampu menggeleng. “Heh… kau… masih nak protect dia lagi?”
“Aku yang
sakit, tak payah nak libatkan orang lain. Aku okay. I can move on.”
Adye
mengangguk. “We’ll see…” Giliran Adye mengunci diri.
Sekilas dia
menoleh pandang pada Farah.
“Don’t
worry… kejap je tu… nanti aku cari boyfriend baru…” Senyum diukir dengan gaya
nakal.
Air mata
yang bertakung dimata Farah mengalir juga. “I’m sorry…I’m sorry…”
“Hey, aku
tak suka sebab lelaki seorang, friendship kita ruin. Bagi aku kawan tu lebih
penting dari boyfriend. Tapi suami tak la… so… better you have him now then
bila kita orang dah kahwin nanti. Kalau yang tu memang aku bunuh kau… Haha…So…
don’t worry, take a chill pill.”
Farah meluru
ke arahnya. Tubuh tiba-tiba terasa dipeluk erat. Uisyh… serba salah dibuatnya.
“Aku okay…
kau tahu… Syed Heykal pun tunggu aku kan?” Senyum diukir lagi.
Farah
tergelak kecil. “See…kau ramai peminat apa…”
“Sebab tu
aku tak kisah… haha…”
Farah
ketawa. “Dah… dah… kau nak pergi mana ni?”
“I…have a
dinner with him…” Sepatah-sepatah ayat tu keluar dari mulutnya.
“Wow…advanced.
Okay… fine, Nampak gayanya I have to ring Heykal right away. Haha…”
“I’m sorry…”
“No…don’t
be…pukul berapa kau orang dinner ni?”
“Lepas
maghrib.”
“So…kau tak
siap lagi… kau tahu tak sekarang dah pukul berapa…”
Maybe I was naïve,
Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
My mistake, I didn't know to be in love
You had to fight to have the upper hand
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know
Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
My mistake, I didn't know to be in love
You had to fight to have the upper hand
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings
Now I know
Faizul P.O.V:
Laci
meja ditarik. Sengaja mencuri pandang gambar gadis tu. No.Bukan Farah. Syamin.
It’s been awhile now…almost two months tapi dia masih tertanya-tanya sama ada
keputusan yang dia buat tu betul atau tak… Farah baik… tapi…
“Tempat yang mana best kalau nak makan seafood?”
“Well, dulu I dengan Syamin…” Kata-katanya terhenti.
Syamin lagi… “I’m sorry…”
Farah tersenyum. “It’s okay… I faham…”
Itu minggu pertama dia orang bersama.
Tapi… tadi pun…
“I sakit kepala la fikir benda ni… I tak faham dah berapa
kali I kira pun, still tak balance juga akaun ni…” Farah mengadu di balik sana
talian.
“Kenapa tak tanya Syamin? Dia ambil akaun juga dulu kan?”
Talian sebelah sana senyap.
“Shoot…I’m sorry…”
“It’s been two months…”
“I know. I’m sorry…”
“You keep saying her name while we’re together. I’m
getting sick of it.”
Dia menadah telinga lagi. “My bad…”
“Sometimes, I’m just not sure why you break up with her
if you love her that much.”
Me too… me too.
Anak
mata menjeling jam di dinding. Dua pagi… Kunci kereta dicapai. I need to make
things clear. Kereta dipandu membelah lebuh raya menuju Bangsar Heights. Kereta
diparkir di seberang jalan rumah flat yang disewa empat sekawan tu. Well, dulu
selalu datang sini, sengaja nak memaksa Syamin brekfast dengan dia. Kalau tak
jangan harap Syamin nak keluar berdua dengan dia. Kadang-kadang terpaksa
buat-buat terserempak kalau nak makan berdua. Terpaksa minta tolong Adye dan
A-yen curi tengok schedule gadis si flight engineer tu. Busy memanjang.
Tapi for these last two months, asyik datang sini ambil
Farah keluar dinner…lunch…dating?
Dan hari ni… datang sini sebab rindu. Rindukan Syamin.
Tengok bumbung rumah pun jadila…
“Oi!” Suara tu mengganggu konsentrasi. Syamin. Dengan beg
lap top di bahu kiri, dan McD di tangan kanan. Balik lewat gini memang rutin
dia kalau shift malam atau on call.
“Hey.”
“Farah tak balik outstation lagi la… maybe… next
Thursday…”
“I know…”
Senyum terukir di bibir gadis tu. Senyum yang…dirindui?
“Tak dapat tengok orang tengok rumah pun jadi ka? Haha…”
Dia pun tersengih sama. Ada pula…
“Pukul 3 pagi dah ni bro… balik la tidur… esok kan kerja.Jaa.”
Gadis tu mula melangkah masuk ke rumah.
“I miss you.” Random je ayat tu keluar dari bibir.
“Heh… nasib baik Farah tak ada, kalau dia dengar, mati
kau…balik la…”
Dia terdiam. Hati rasa berat. But I honestly miss you.
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale,
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down,
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet,
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down,
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around
Syamin P.O.V:
Kaki
melangkah mendahului Syed Heykal disisinya.
“I checked the plane, and yeah, it’s kinda huge, and you
probably need to spend a little more time understanding the control system.”
“It’s a new system yeah?”
Dia mengangguk. “But, you sure are lucky… dapat bawa that
jumbo plane.”
“Well, I will feel lucky if someone will give me her
number. Minta dah dekat seratus kali, tak dapat juga.” Selamba lelaki tu
bicara. Menyuarakan rasa hati.
Seperti biasa dia cuma mampu gelak. Nafas dilepas
perlahan.
“Okay, okay… just give me your number, I’m gonna give you
a call.”
“No, I won’t fall for that trick again. I gave you my
number but you never call. Now…” Handphone ditarik keluar dari poket seluar.
“Why don’t you just give me your number, so that I can
call you tonight?”
“What for?”
“Well, just in case I wanna ask about the control system…
or… maybe ask to going steady…” Makin perlahan suara lelaki tu. Dia gelak lagi.
“Yeah…what ever…” Handphone lelaki itu diambil. Nombornya
ditekan perlahan. “There you go…”
“Thank you, dear…”
Kepala menggeleng. Kaki melangkah pergi. Mungkin it’s
better if I have a new start? No?
Faizul P.O.V:
“I’m
sorry.” Suasana dalam kereta tu terasa kelam. Hanya esakan kecil dari Farah
yang kedengaran. “I knew it.”
“I’m sorry…”
“You’re such a heartbreaker.”
“I love her.”
“Then why you’re going out with me?”
“Why you seduce me on the first place?”
“I didn’t!”
Nafas dilepas perlahan. “Yeah, you don’t… my
bad…I’m sorry. Maybe I just… I just wanna see if she’ll be jealous or not. But
I am the one who being jealous here… I’m not really sure if she actually love
me or not.”
“And you used me?”
“I don’t know… I just don’t…”
Farah, air mata dikesat dengan belakang
tangan. Kepala mengangguk kecil.
“She loved you so much that she just wanna see
you happy. She don’t even mad at me when I stole you from her. But I
understand. I’m trying to understand. If she can do it, why not me, right… I
love her too. So… go. Go for it.”
“I feel so bad, what if she doesn’t want me
back?”
“I don’t want you either…”
Dia menoleh kepada gadis itu. Tak tahu nak
gelak ke nak menangis.
“I mean… you’re the one who broke up with me…”
“And I did that to her too…”
“But she loves you…still I guess, kalau tak
mesti dia dah dengan Heykal kan?”
“What?”
“Shoot…”
“What? Tell me.”
“Just…you don’t hear this from me okay?
Heykal… the pilot yang handsome tu… he’s one of her fans. And he’s trying…lama
dah kot… since you and her together, tapi… Syamin tak layan dia pun… sebab dia
dah ada kau…”
Tangan meraup wajah. And I be with her best
friend instead? Rasa nak hantuk kepala kat cermin kereta… Stereng pun boleh…
Dia
berjalan pantas mendekati office MAS. Mencari the one and only Syamin. Kaki
berhenti sebaik sahaja dia melihat Heykal dan gadis tu ditengah lobi. Syamin
menyerahkan handphone kepada lelaki itu.
“Well, just in case I wanna ask about the control system…
or… maybe ask to going steady…” Makin perlahan suara lelaki tu. Gadis tu gelak
lagi.
“Yeah…what ever…” Handphone lelaki itu diambil. Nombor
ditekan perlahan. “There you go…”
“Thank you, dear…”
Hancur hati ku… dilanda derita… cewah…
Tapi, serius… hancur hatiku…
Syamin P.O.V:
Beg
laptop diraih ke bahu, paper plan yang bergulung barang dua tiga gulung tu
dirembat sekali dengan tangan kiri. Banyak benda nak kena settle by tomorrow. Lepas
tu holiday! Kaki melangkah panats menuju ke Harrier. Tapi dia terhenti sebaik
saja terlihat kelibat Faizul di keretanya. Bersandar menunggu dia.
“Yeah?” Dia bertanya dengan muka blur.
“Can we have a talk?” Tegak terus lelaki tu
bila melihat dia.
“Err…” jam ditangan dijeling sekali…
“Sekejap je…”
Perlahan dia mengangguk. “Shall we?”
Duduk
dilabuhkan. Memandang lelaki tu… awkward nya…la…pun…
“Yeah?” Dia buka soalan.
“I’m sorry…”
“Eh?”
“I made a mistake, and… I want you back.”
“Who do you think you are? Running round
leaving scars, collecting your jar of hearts, tearing love apart?”
“Huh?”
“Kau datang dan pergi,oh, begitu saja, semua
ku terima apa adanya, ku pegang erat dan ku halangi waktu, tak urung jua, ku
lihat kau pergi…”
Lelaki tu menggigit bibirnya.
“Kekasih mu ini ingin kembali…” Dia main juga
permainan tu.
“But it’s too late for you and your white
horse to come around.”
Dia bangkit meninggalkan lelaki itu.
And there you are on your knees,
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry
Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale,
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rear view mirror disappearing now
And it's too late for you and your white horse
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to catch me now
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry
Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale,
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rear view mirror disappearing now
And it's too late for you and your white horse
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to catch me now
Faizul P.O.V:
“But
it’s too late for you and your white horse to come around.”
Gadis tu bangkit meninggalkan dia.
Kepala terasa berpinar. No.
Don’t say a thing
I act tough but I’m not inside
Don’t abandon me
You know that there’s no one who will understand me like you, baby
Oh you, come back to me ye ye ye
I act tough but I’m not inside
Don’t abandon me
You know that there’s no one who will understand me like you, baby
Oh you, come back to me ye ye ye
Dia bangun, niat hati nak mengejar si gadis tapi, tak
semena-mena tubuh terasa melayang.
Kepala berat. I’m so done. I’m so messed up. Kelam.
Tengah restoren… Faizul… kau buat malu kaum…
Mata
terbuka… putihnya suasana… aku kat mana? Hospital yeah? Clichenya la soalan…
Tubuh dibangunkan. Tak ada orang yeah?
Pintu terbuka luas.
“Faizul…”
“Ma…”
“Okay tak ni? Doktor cakap kurang air, pastu stress
sangat, kan mama dah cakap jangan kerja berat sangat…”
Tangan didepakan tanpa sedar. Mama tergelak terus
memeluk dia. “Manja…”
Air mata tumpah juga.
“Syamin… tak nak Faizul dah…”
“Faizul yang putus dengan dia kan?”
“Faizul nak dia balik…”
“Kenapa?”
“Entah…I just want her…”
“Sabar la, mungkin kamu berdua tak ada jodoh…Rehat
dulu, jangan fikir banyak-banyak…”
“Faizul tak boleh tak fikir…”
“Tidur, rehat…jangan fikir-fikir. Anggap tak ada benda
je, okay?”
Dia baring semula. Bantal pula jadi tempat peluk dia.
“Faizul rehat dulu, mama pergi beli makanan untuk
Faizul, okay?”
Angguk. Pintu terdengar dibuka, tutup.
3 minit dia begitu, menutup muka dengan bantal sampai
rasa oksigen dah kehabisan baru dia menelentang.
“Argh…”
Syamin kepala menggeleng.
“Buat malu je kau ni… buruk perangai. Orang dah kata,
makan jaga. Ni jadi macam ni, salahkan aku…”
“You rejected me…”
“Kau yang putus dengan aku…”
“I want you back…”
“Farah macam mana?”
“She doesn’t want me either…”
“Dah kau asyik sebut nama aku depan dia, mau dia tak
mengamuk?”
“See how much I love you?”
“No…”
Nafas dilepas perlahan hampir serentak.
“Habis Syed Heykal macam mana?”
“Screw him.”
“Buruk perangai…”
“ I just want you back…”
“What if it happens again? I mean you left me once…”
“I learnt my mistake.”
“What if it happens again?”
“What if it doesn’t?”
Shrug. “Entah…”
“Just…give me one more chance. I won’t let you down…”
“Pening a…Suka hati kau la…Kau dah la messed up macam
ni… kalau ye nak pujuk aku pun, pakai lah smart-smart sikit… baju hospital ain’t
smart doncha know?”
Faizul tergelak kecil…
“Ni je yang mampu…”
“Banyak la kau… dah, aku balik. See you… around.”
Senyum terukir…
“So…it’s not too late for me and my white horse to come
around?”
“Just catch me before I fall again…”
Angguk.Faham. Okay…
“I love you too…” Tiba-tiba dia bicara.
“I didn’t say I love you…”
“Well, I kinda heard it…”
“The doctor must forget to put the screw back…”
Try and catch me now
Credit:
Taylor Swift-White Horse
Cher Llyod-Want U Back
Christina Perri-Jar Of Hearts
Letto- Ruang Rindu
Axl’s- Andai Dapat Ku Undur Putaran Dunia
Big Bang-Bad Boy.
Juann Fitri.
Random Moment.
“Maybe I’m just feeling romantic,
haha…”
daebak... tapi..
ReplyDeleteerr..
this is NOT 'your' story kann???
never happen, ayte?
Nope. Just me and my imagination running wild again.
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